Rsv.

So ryker has finally caught rsv. I have had him tested 5 times before this and he caught it. He had to go into the hospital again on wednesday through friday. I really like the hospital for some reasons, but for other reasons like waking us up after ryker has been asleep for 20 min. The good thing is that the food is really good. Well now I'm trying to get him to where he isnt so congested. I can't get anything out of his nose any more. So its 12:30 in the morning and we're sitting on the bathroom floor with the hot water going to help with the congestion. What a life being a mom when you have to do this. I sure love him but I would sure love my sleep.

I love my mom...

My mom was so sweet. She wanted to have a date with me tonight and we haven't had one for a while. We went and saw the play at the high school. It was called Once upon an mattress. I know weird title right well. It's based on the fairy tale the princess and the pea. The book is by Jay Thompson, Dean Fuller, and Marshall Barer. I think I'm going to get that book at the library next Monday. Well everyone is asleep and now it's my turn.

such a great day.

I loved my day spending time with the kids and even made 4 loves of bread. Now its movie time watching cars.

Aww my family.

I love my family so much. Steve gave me the best weekend in my life. We got to share a night and a full day just the two of us at home. For once I didn't mind staying at home with him. I even enjoy having the kids home with me. Ashley was home for about not even an hour and fell asleep on my lap. She hasn't done that for almost a year and a half. Yeepee, and Ryker is even asleep. So I love life right know and I'm blessed everyday for what I have.

Awww what a nice weekend.

So my in-laws were so nice to take both my kids this weekend. I have had the best time with steve that I forgot what it was like to just have me and him alone together. Thanks for everything Mike and Deanna Your a life savior.

Why do we have to fight....

Me and Ashley are having the hardest time to even be in the same room. I tell her to do something she refuses, Steve tells her to do something she giggles and does it. I'm so over this. I cry at night thinking I'm the worst mother in the world and all she wants his him. Why or Why. Why would god give me this angel and then make it hard for me to take care of her. Maybe i wasn't supposed to be a mom. I think I messed with fate in that way and now I'm paying for it. What am I supposed to do. How am I supposed to feel good about being a mom when I have all this trouble. Maybe it will get better soon I don't know, I think I have to pray about it.